I have no clue what is going on with me right now. I have two things that I like to do but I think I am always second guessing myself. I want to create a way to leave this mind, leave this planet, leave this universe. Just how people escape when they read a book or watch a movie. I want to create a world were only I can escape too. But sometimes I feel like I am fooling myself. Fooling myself to believe that maybe I have something going here. I want to create a world with art but I find myself stumped. I want to create a word with a short story but when I start typing I feel stupid and I start asking myself.."What am I doing?"
I feel like Im losing faith in myself or something. Something is not there. I feel like I have all these ideas, but I am my worst critic and Im shooting my own self down.
I have no clue why I can not create anything anymore. Its like writers block, but I do know what I want to say, its just that I can't spit it out. I look around and see everyone doing there dreams while I just second guess my every motion...
Am I being hard on myself?
Why am I being so judgmental, why can't I just have fun?