Honesty At Its Purest: Passion 4 Street Fashion

"On the phone with Rose.."

Im happy the week is ending. I can not believe its May. I feel good. School is good. Im thinking about taking classes over the summer. I really am. Mainly because I hate being bored and in the house. Maybe take up a sculpture class or something with a friend. I have to start looking now. I been feeling a bit down, and then sometimes I come back up. I will be coming home and thinking to myself, about life...

*like always*

Can I be Honest?

Hell, if I can't be honest here than I have nowhere to be honest. I hate feeling trapped so Im not gonna start now. Pretty much a couple of people are very negative about the whole pregnancy thing. The world pretty much knows now. I maybe care too much about what people say. Just when I think Im over what people say about me, I find out, Im not. I wish I was stronger in that department. I tired of being afraid to talk about it or afraid of what people are going to say. Even though people have already stated their opinions to me already.

If your new to this blog, my situation is Im married and about to have a baby girl. Financial Im set. I live on my own. But I still feel the need to prove to people this is "okay" and that this is "normal". Why am I doing this? I feel like Im fifteen in my parents house.

I want to enjoy this pregnancy. I am. With my husband and my family & friends....well, friend. The people that matter. So why do I care so much about being judged by people, even people I am close too? Should't my main focus be my future child and not them? Does this make me a bad mom for the future?

I feel so alone on this subject...don't feel like crying...so next topic...

People don't know what goes on in other peoples head. People probably look at me like Im gloating about kids and shit when Im NOT! Im a normal human being that needs to figure shit out like anyone else.

Is it wrong Im happy about this baby? Is it wrong Im happy its a girl? Is it wrong that Im fucking enjoying being pregnant?

CAN I FUCKING LIVE??????

I don't want to be that girl. That girl that worries about what people say. I don't wanna be her...

I just want to live and have people live THEIR life and not study mine?

*sad face*

:(

anyway....

Greg says when she finally gets here, people will be less..."rude"...

Hope he is right..

:(

Of course Greg don't care, I don't tell him what people say to me or anything. He easily can hate people in a heartbeat and not give a fuck about it, so I keep it to myself. I wish I had balls like he does. I never met someone who really and honestly does not give a fuck.

Im case you wondering, people have said to me how they feel, and some just act very different towards me...its so gay...NO LIE! And they think I don't notice shit for some reason like Im FUCKING DUMB...

Sorry for the venting you guys...

Anyway, in lollipops and candyland world...Im fine.

I like to speak the truth. Im not that chick that hides her fucking feelings. Im not her. I voice it. I don't hold it in like a lot of these crazy people out here. I feel if your having an issue, say it. Never keep that shit in.

Ever...

me now at 25 :)

2011

Me at 18 years old, with purple hair....same specs...lol!

2003

I was so emo...

In The Land Of Rose:

Rose is still getting ready for Vegas. Her nephew in-laws birthday was on the 30th, so happy birthday to him. He turned one. How cute is he?? Rose is very helpful with her other fam's kids I must say...she is very loyal. Very sweet.

DIMPLES!

Street Passion 4 Fashion:

Whats better than street fashion? Its raw, uncut, and real. People who actually walk around everyday in their fashionable shit and their not famous. Its rare seeing stylish people who are "normal" with regular bank accounts... So here they are..

Wool Ready:

her tights are so bad ass, and the green makes the outfit awesome....winning..

Boho Moroccan:

By far my favorite...head wrap in to die for...

Hippie & Earthie:

very african influenced yet very new york punk...

Tropical Beige:

colorful yet dull = perfection

Trenched & See Through:

I love the shoes and the coat...

Jean Rags & Oxfords:

I love the elephant shirt! And the vintage Oxfords of course...

Fur & Uptown Class:

The bag actually killed my soul...loves it

Pale Pink & Easter Blue:

Love the mixes of pink and that bright blue....awesome

Can I Be Honest:

Lets be honest. Everyones pregnancy is different. Everyones labor is different. We all have our superstitions and what have you. I think its beautiful when woman pose nude with their pregnant bellies. I think if done right, it looks amazing. Some people, like my Mom, blew up like I fucking blimp. And she claims people thought she was carrying twins. And some like my moms friend, did not gain a pound, only in her stomach. Some have hard pregnancies and some have easy pregnancies.

Mariah Carey, looks bad.

Im not trying to be mean. She is a beautiful woman. But I think she needs to chill out with trying to be sexy while being pregnant with two humans in her belly. Her photo shoot was more "look at me being hot and preggie" than "look at me embracing my pregnant stomach"...

omg....really?

Am I the only one who thinks she looks a hot mess? I do not no, maybe its me. But she sure looks different. She did not gain a lot of weight but her face seems very swollen.

I mean wow! Her nose!

Pregnancy is a beautiful thing, we all gain weight somewhere, its natural....just...no your body...do it right...

Sometimes you don't need to be naked showing your bulge...

Pregnancy Win

Tia Mowry

Now personally I think this is beautiful. She looks stunning. She is smiling. She doesn't have the sexy face. I love it. This is to show Im not saying preggie girls shouldn't do this look, some can!

I think you have to go about it the right way...

Tia looks amazing.

Unfortunately, I'll never have a picture like this below..

*sad face*

moves on....

cute :)

Enough with the Preggerz...

Back to the skinny minnies...

Celebrity Candies:

Kelly O.

Please don't kill me you guys. I love her. I love the fact she is so punk yet she isn't. I love everything about her. Even since high-school I loved her. I think she is epic....

Kelly O. and Fergie

Taylor M.

Khole K.

Helen M.

Thats a bad bitch! She has got all grey in her hair and she is rocking it. Nice leather jacket, and leopard print dress....I can't...

Major win!

Rihanna

I know ya'll are sick of her but how can ya'll be? Her look changes every damn minute and I love it. I love the mermaid hair.

she is sooo hot...

Wurk Gwerrllllll!

Ashlee S.

I love her style, I just do...

Dita Von Tease

Eva Pigford

...AGAIN!

Girlfriend is doing it! Maybe she got a raise on that modeling career because she is kill'em..

Eve

Love the leggings...

Katy Perry

Love Celebs, they wear what I can't...

*tee hee*

So the video comes out tonight. Bout time. But I feel since they had it in a vault that the hype is all up right now. I hope its not corny. She always puts a lot of work into her videos, I just hope this succeeds my expectations. I personally think it should have been out to watch...but people want count-downs...

*side eye*

A piece from Judas the video:

beautiful shot, maybe it won't be so bad... I'll report back tomorrow....

and last but not least...

this is for you...

love you all..

and be true to yourself.....