Gotta Get My Telephone...

Its a chill day today...

Just got home, finals are through. I watched my girl Gaga on The View. I could honestly watch her for days, she is so interesting. So much is going on. This weekend was alright. Nothing special. Greg and I went to the gym together which was pretty fun. We both felt weird because that was the only thing left that we never did together. We were on the elliptical staring at each other laughing. It was pretty insane. I got a good work out in. It did keep my mind off of things.

Pretty much, if you don't know, I am the biggest worrier in the world. I fucking hate it. I worry about everything. When I was sixteen I told myself that I would change that. But now I just accept the fact that this is who I am. You can't change everything about yourself. I just try to keep it contained with meditation. Which does help. Its hard for me to accept hearing the two words.."Thats life". Its gonna take some growth. But there has been some.

Its weird.

Sometimes my worrying lets me know how normal I am, and also lets me know just because things are going on..doesn't mean thats the end.

Another thing I want to exercise from my thoughts is carrying about what people think. God damn I hate that. You could be a fucking bird and I would give a fuck about what the damn bird said. I hate that about myself and have no clue how to cut it off. What the hell. I think about it all the time. Sorry for the venting. But we all have things we wanna change.

Im just open about it.

So I got my "Gaga" on and bought this cool Telephone shirt that was on sale for 5 bucks. Good ole Hot Topic. I love it. Thought it would be the perfect shit to rock since her album is soon to be out.

Gaga Telephone Shirt:

Close up:

I love questionnaires, so why not. This gives everyone a taste of who I am...again...

1 - What I find attractive in girls/boys.

In boys, I find everything attractive, because it depends on the guy. Like for example, I like Robert Pattinson's mouth, and I like Reggie Bush's body...it all depends..

2 - Where I would like to live.

Oh it does not matter, I love where I live now, but if I went somewhere knew, I would be down. I think i hate planes these days, sooo...maybe somewhere closer to my folks.

3 - One of the things I am proud of.

Umm...being..wow...

4 - One of my insecurities.

My worrying...

5 - My childhood career choice.

I wanted to be a singer, Ha! Really really bad..

6 - My favorite ice cream.

Love them all :/

7 - What turns me on.

A huge D$%@#

8 - One of my bad habits.

I bite my nails and don't even know it..

9 - Who I wish I could be.

Lady Gaga, because she could give a fuck

10- Where I want to be right now.

with Greg. Honestly, we hang out way too much, but I love his company...

11 - The last thing I ate.

Noodles and cheese cake...yum

12 - Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately.

obert Pattinson, pale and ready to bite down on my...neck

13 - A random fact about anything

Im afraid of balloons. I hated that game at parties where you have to sit on them fuckers...*shivers*..

So I found this chart, and even though its very simple. I love it. It works for someone like me. Yeah I know, I know. My worrying must be pretty bad if I need a chart. But its only with certain things that I tend to panic. Small steps I guess...

I promise myself that today I am going to relax and take time to mediate. Seems like every time I do it the phone rings. But I need this. Im more spazzy this week than usual. Just thinking about the future and life as a whole. I'll light up some candles and chill.

And eat cheesecake....

Back To Celebritez:

Kat Von D

I find her sexy. Maybe its the tats but I love her body shape as well...Im feeling her. She looks cute..

Kelly Rowland

I know you all saw pictures already from The Billboard Awards but bear with me. Everyone is saying Kelly killed it on the red carpet..she did, she wasn't the best dressed but she gave everyone a run for their money with that body. Ekk! Love the dress.

Selena Gomez

Im assuming she is fucking now...

Yep! Look at that hand on Bieber's thigh! Yeah their fucking. You don't start wearing dresses like that for nothing. She looks great! Im mad Bieber looks like a woman in this pic. Wow.

Michelle Williams

I love it! Wurk!

M. Rod

Michelle looking very pretty. I love it. She should clean up more.

Tay Swift

She finally looks like an adult. Thank you Taylor! Finally! And she uses a flat iron to that hair!

Fergie

Her dress is fab, I would rock that.

Keri Hilson

She has been doing the damn thang lately..

Nicki Minaj

Wow...I mean....her body!

I wish I had a temple like this one, even if it is surgically enhanced. My lord. She looked stunning hands down. I love everything I have to say. Even her pink lace front down to the shoes. I mean...wow!

CHRIST!

Bey

Her performance was amazing. She can dance her ass off. I can see why she is an icon for many. She holds her own. And I must say she must have some type of potion or voodoo lyrics in her songs because she makes me LIKE ALL OF THEM! How does she do that? I will one day say I hate it and then all of a sudden she puts out a video and then Im feeling it. What the hell. I do not get it. I hated that damn "Who Run The World" song...now I find myself humming the mutherfucker!

Bey I must say, she rocked the awards, best performance yet...

And I loved her shout out to her best-friend... wink wink!

"I love me some Jay Z".. - Beyonce

Best Dress Of The Billboard Awards:

(my opinion)

Rihanna

C'mon look at that flawless face and all white suit. Classy. Love she rocked her nudes with this outfit. Rih Rih does it everytime for me.

Oh my gosh....

Loved her performance last night but BRITNEY! Go home. Its over. The Britney pop icon is done. And I don't wanna here from everyone that its because she got two kids. Fuck that. Britney is heavy medicated and is on prozac. She needs to just stay home. I use to love me some Brit but her energy is gone and so his her dance moves...

Plus you can tell she is on meds.

Just sayin'

Amb & Wiz

I like her outfit I can not lie....I miss the old Amber with Kanye though...

He looks a mess Amber, and you know it...

*shakes head*

Im so ready for Jersey Shore to come back on. I here its gonna be in Italy. Which might be weird. I miss that show. So does Greg. Gosh darn it you guys, come back!

Im guessing they are still filming.

Well peeps, don't forget Gaga comes out tomorrow!

Born This Way!

Get your copy! Or download it...whatever...

Check her out on SNL

Mwah!

I love Adele...eat that burger girllll...!