So its sunday and I finally heard from Greg. It was a very sweet email. I miss him and I find myself trying to fill this hole inside me that is missing. He use to fill that part but now, hes gone...so im trying to fill the hole. With liqour, sleeping pills, anything, even the things I should stay far far away from. I cant stop trying to refill this emptiness...Im so in a big loop. I need to figure myself out. I need to be strong.