Dont Bring Me Down

I feel dark. It is sunday. Tomorrow is another day. I am watching this movie called Funny People. It has Adam Sandler and Seth Rogen in here. So far so good. It is a dark comedy. I so know how the guy feels like. Well, kind of. I do not of cancer of course, but I am sick this week. I been sick for two weeks, taking meds an drinking lots of juice. I hate looking around and seeing people walking around happy. People who are not sick. People laughing and smiling, going about there day as you sit there coughing and dying inside. I am such a drama fuck, its so sad. That why I try to vent here so I won't talk people ears off. At least here people have the choice to read this or not. I feel sick and I can tell I am not getting better anytime soon. As a woman I know my body. I can feel me getting sicker. I have no clue whats wrong with me. I am starting not to care, then I care again. This girl on this movie just said she had a skinny vagina. Thats funny. I have friends with those as well. Sorry, I am off subject.

I fell horrible today. I know tomorrow I will feel better. Everything hurts. My body hurts. Sitting down hurts. I want to just read all day and escape from my pain. Ouch Ouch Ouch. I might try and read The Host again, even though it bites and is getting super boring. I guess this is life. Greg says life can not be perfect all the time. If you come from a lifestyle like mine I guess its a hard pill to swallow.

Now, enough of my sickness..lets get to shit I like.

By the way, someone posted a comment about how the like my artwork. They posted themselves as anonymous and said they liked my drawings. So I started drawing more today. So thanks whoever you are, you just inspired me and did not even no it...thank you... :)

I can not wait for Eclipse to come out. I am ready. Man I feel bummed, I am so sorry I keep complaining. But being sick sucks so bad. I feel like I am the only one. Two weeks sick and I have never got better. What the fuck is antibiotics suppose to do? Kill bacteria right? What the fuck? It is such a blow. Hearing shit about doctors and other depressing shit just brings me down. Reminds me of this song by Sia...

Have you guys heard it? It is so beautiful. My music selection is such a mess. But I wil post the song at the end of this post. Hopefully I can find it.

How cool is this cake?

Id smoke just to use these....cute...

I CAN NEVER FIND SHOULDER PADED SHIT??? WHY!!!!!

I wish I had Prom again, because this would be my dress...

Why do I post shoes I would never wear?

I love this chicks shoes and stockings. So sweet! I love fur boots done right!

Okay. I am sorry again for being a drowned out emo girl. Being sick for two weeks is not fun. Also, being sick for two weeks and still no results is even worst. I hope I get better.

21 Days...*chuck dueces*...You Wont Kill My Dream...

I went to this art gallery on saturday. And my parents where there. Of course they walk in and it is so not there scene. Of course it was mine. I am guessing it is popular to draw skinny women or something. Because thats what I do. I have been doing it for years. I love it. But apparently, my MOM (of course) says that all the art work in the gallery looks like mine and I have been ripped off. Basically people are living off of my work and stole from me...WHO THE FUCK AM I?? These people work for dreamworks and do Graffiti! I am a god damn college student from bum-fuck MARYLAND! No one stole from me! Yes, people draw as well as I do. People create things as I do. Some artist borrow from other artist and some artist are inspired as well. Why is it such a big thing. So I show her my new art today. Hoping for some encouragement. And she goes back to when we went to that gallery 3 days ago and says Im dumb for putting my art online. And that the people in that gallery stole it. And Im getting jipped out of money. This broad is such a god damn weirdo? Who thinks like that! Obviously you now NOTHING about the art world! She sees some art that looks similar to mine and think I got ripped off!?! CHICK I could show u a million and one artist who draw the same naked bitches like I draw! iTS NOT THE SAME THOUGH! Some use spray paint, some use acrlyic! Some use oil! Some just draw on a god damn shoe! Donatello and all thoose old fucker from the reniasance period had the same exact type of style. Do your fucking research! I might do shit similar but don't stand there with that face and say "Oh well, tia could draw this, they must of copied her...." WTF??????????? These fucker do not know who the fuck I am! OMG! I AM FUCKING FURIOUS RIGHT NOW TO THE POINT WHERE I DONT WANT TO SEE A FUCKING PENCIL EVER AGAIN! I feel horrible because not only does she think I set myself up for failure, but because I feel like a nobody.

Now I feel like if should have worked harder to get my stuff in a gallery...

Why?

Why must she smash the one thing I can do...

Whats the point.

I feel low. I want my husband....so bad...

*tears*

Enjoy your trip...