Roger That...Ra Ra... Roger That!

Went partying in D.C. Had some okay fun. I really wanted chinese food. I was right by China Town as well. Damn it. Britney wanted to dance so thats cool. What a weekend. I saw my god brother from another mother Shomari. We laughed all night on sunday. We had fun. I grew up with him. Our moms had a fall out, so we stopped seeing each other. But we contacted each other and it is still like how we were when we was 3 years old. We laughed about the old times and all. My girl Rose was having such a bummed week last week. But I can tell by hearing her voice this morning she is happier. Damn you Rose. Sorry, I have to say it. Rose got dick last night....Im so jealous. *sigh*

I have not been intimate in a billion years....cob-webs.... *eww.* Hahahaha! Congradz you bitch.


So we partyed it up. Still I feel nothing. I am very emotional. But I feel nothing. I feel Greg was such a dream. Never happened. All his emails are him counting down. I am listening to my Miss You playlist on itunes. I feel something but not as strong. Rose said it will kick in on the plane. I think when I see Greg I am going to fall down and cry. I get the holy ghost everytime I spaz out and I am not even Christian.

So Rose and I tried to get some Easter sales. The sales were lame. I was surprized. Aint that jesus day? I went to Sephora and got Urban Decay Palette. Rose got one too! I love it. I played with it as soon as I got home. Hence the one green eye and one pink eye...HA HA! I said pinky eye...*tee hee*. I want to butt fuck these colors. They pop so well. Even without primer.



Bout to go to Torrid now. I'll post some new shit later. I am so behind. I have 2 weeks left and I have not even packed... eek...

The Graveyard Of Ships

Above water I am nothing

Im a single ripple from the wave

Never the foam that rages against the rocks

My wraith is heavy like no winds

Sail boats sail but never my way

I am invisible to the sea

Above the ocean I am nothing

I am a stone that sinks to the bottom

Seagulls fly pass me and laugh to there expense

Next to a seashell I am a plain stone

They get put in the pocket while I am tossed aside

I am the salt in the air people spit out

I am the ugly cloud on a bright ocean sky

Above the pier I am nothing

People walk my boardwalk and hold hands together

Im the lawn chair on the beach that remains empty

I am smart

I know I will never be as bright as the sun

or as shiny as the oceans tides that yell his name...

But down there I am something

Anchors drag me down into the darkest part of the sea

Down there I am with you

We hold hands and walk the black sands

Coral wrapped around our toes

Here we are together

Here someone loves me

Here I am at peace

with him by my side

Down Below I am something

We dance a slow love song made by the whales

I loved you more and more, As we dance around the graveyard of ships

That sunk to the oceans floor

To never to see the light of day again...

with you....

you.

No Fashion Here This Morning, Just Life.

I looked at the calendar today. It felt like my eyes and mind where playing a cruel game on me. Because honestly thats what it felt like. I sit here in a little bit of awe. I look around my room realizing that I need to start packing clothes. Is the time really here? It can't be. 8 months is a long time. It cant be up now. I sit here half awake realizing I have to see a ton of people before I leave and I have to cram it in two measly weeks. So much to now, in so little time. I am sure I explained this before. But I feel such a strangeness in a way. When my husband went to Bootcamp, it was strange. The very last weeks that I knew I was going to see him I was very antsy, short, depressed, and acting like a mental patient. It was strange. I was always backwards with emotions about distance. When the distance starts your suppose to cry and feel blue that the person is not there. Then when times gets closer you get happier. See I do not do that. I am the total opposite. When the distance starts I do not cry, I am fine. But when time gets closer and closer, I miss the person so much. I start to get antsy and depressed and don't want to look at couples. Strange Right?

So I feel differently. In the start of March, I cried a lot. I missed him. I sobbed to all my friends, and I sobbed on this blog as well. Anyway. I just feel it is weird I have no emotion yet. Maybe I got it all out? Maybe it has not hit yet I am about to see him. We email each other everyday. He told me he is mega excited. I am as well. But at the same time it feels like I am not leaving anywhere.
Weekend was ... Interesting.

I just typed three long paragraphs and just deleted it all. On purpose. I was saying to much I feel. "She" would read it for her psycho and I am not down with that.. I am mad I have to do that, but hey, I am mad I ever met the douche lord.

Lol!

Happy Easter

Aprils New Beginnings: Ends With A Lovely Friday

Friday. So I did this cleanse last night. I had a wash cloth over my face. Hot water steam. Then I drunk some tea. I woke up, with yet another bump. But not as bad these bumps are kinda small. Greg said "Babe, the last thing I care about is bumps on your face. I need you and want you. I am not gonna care if you have a break out." I understand he cares more for me. But let me state this for people who read this blog and has not a clue why I am worried and being all up in arms over a few bumps. Im am going to break it down because you average female will not understand my reasoning. Here it goes:

I have not seen Greg in 8 months. I have talked to Greg 3 times over the phone. I have not touched him in 8 months. I have been able to call him for 8 months. I dated Greg for 7 years and this is the longest we have been apart since bootcamp at that was only 3 months. When you are in a relationship with someone in the "military" you see things slight different. When you see the fucker everyday you could give a shit what you look like. But I am not your average wife. We are not your middle America white picket fence everyday wife with a 9 to 5 working everyday husband. He is gone alot. So when I see him I want to look my best. I KNOW Greg loves me and does not care about no damn bumps, but I am seeing things this way only because I am about to see him for the first time in almost a year. The only women who understand what I am talking about are women who are married to military men. And from convos with them I see its apparent I am not the only one.

Now.

Next Topic.

I love when people put together these little magazine like outfits. It is so cute and I want to make on myself but I do not have Photoshop for Mac just yet. I only have it for PC.

1.) Green In Wonderland

I would kill for those glasses. Why can't I find any that are knock offs. I want the green shoes by the way, and the green bag makes me want to steal again. The whole Alice and Wonderland shirt is hot as well. I'd wear this whole thing except for the white pants.

2.) British Subway:

I am so into the whole british flag rings, shirts and clutches. If only I could find my size in them. Love the shade and the bag is to die for. Nice Docs by the way.
3.) Sunny Epiphany

Okay we all know I would not rock the shorts. But I love the Aviators and the gold Chanel earrings. And the splash of blue I love. I am also feeling the yellow sun bag.
4.) The White Stripez

I own two striped shirts like this. Usually a big girl cant wear it because it make you fatter. Is that the rule? Well, it needs to be broken. I seem bigger girls than me rocking stripes and they were doing the damn thing. Love the blazer. Love the boots and the ballets.

5.) Pink & Purdy Nerdy

I am so digging the Nerd Glasses but I refuses to tell anyone. I think it looks dumb at times but now I am falling for them. Love the tee shirt. And I am feeling the hell out of the floral boots.
6.) Cupcake & Spinklez

I am feeling the whole pink color these days. Usually, I go for darker tones. I love purple, black and dark blues. I find my hues brighting up a lot. Love the candy colors. Those shades scream "Tia! Buy me bitch!"
7.) Cat Daddy

I want those shoes so bad. One of my favorite bloggers own a pair of these. I love this whole look. I love the hat and the blue button down. Its all down hill from here.
Happy Friday!!!!!

So Rose stopped by and we watched Glee for the first time. Her friend Charles told her about it and bribed her to go watch it. I always wanted to see what the hype was about. After watching the very first episode I was shocked that people like this. Don't get me wrong, I am not a Glee hater, I actually like the show. But I was so amazed how popular it was giving the fact its a musical. A huge musical sitcom. People walk around saying Harry Potters gay, Twilight is for Fags, yet I am going to go home and watch Glee? C'mon people really. Given how popular the show is, many people must watch it. I am shocked America even gave this a second season given its r&B cheesy hits and people singing there rendition of Journey. I was blown away that America thinks this is great. Given the fact I find it awesome as well. All the dance movies flop in America yet Glee is the number one show? Did I miss something?

Anyway, I liked it. If I had to rate it from 1 to 10 I would give it a solid 8. I would watch it again and I plan too. The drama is packed in heavy. And you know I love drama. So I am going to keep watching it. I like it. It's no LOST or Modern Family but it will go on my DVR list I can tell.

I know I always say this but how sexy is Rob in this picture. I'd have his babies in Paris.

I want these pants....
I still have not seen the Runaways. Whomp Whomp. I wanted to see it bad. What the hell. I still do not think it is playing out here. Come on Maryland.

So tomorrow I am going shopping. I just realized I still have not posted my H&M stuff. I will soon. I also got this shirt from Target I need to show. Rose and I went Target hopping at 10:00 at night. We so should have not been there. But we got cute stuff. Also Brit wants to party hard this weekend. Sounds like she wants to club hop. Fine with me. There is this lounge in D.C. called the Josephene Lounge. The inside looks amazing. I think I want to go there. It looks very Arabian. So, I might be M.I.A. this weekend. I guess?

Oooo! Terminators on!........*side tracked*

I have so many people I have to see before I leave and I know people are going to be pissed if I do not see them. Eghh, I have no control over stuff like that these days. When I had a car that was more like it. That truck is dying on me. I am just waiting for it to cut off on me. I can take it around the block but that is it.

I talked to Greg today..............
So Im gonna leave and try and get some sleep. Greg and I have talked about our relationship. Something happened and now I think we might get a divorce. I feel it is better. I feel that our whole relationship was a mess. I should have known. I guess he got tired of my weird shape and my dramatic antics.....April Fools....:)

*giggles*...got ya!

Love everyone :)

Good night!

Check out the video, short and sweet, just like his meat :)

Once You Kill A Cow.. from Tiamoya Mcneely on Vimeo.

Dont Stop Believing: Shoez Gone Mad

It was top model the other day in my house. Im trying to learn how to walk in these heels. I got these Steve Madden Girls at Marshalls yesterday, or one of these days. I love them. I do not feel to tall in these. But they make my feet look small and they are very me. But heres the problem. I can not walk in heels. It looks like I am trying to...well....walk in heels. It is pretty funny. Someone like me who never wears heels look horrible walking in them. So I have been practicing my walk lately. I am getting older, I should start wearing some pumps.




My outfit was pretty regular that day. Regular grey top and some skinny jeans, which actually made my legs look quite yum. And your average everyday jean jacket. Then the lovely Steve Maddens shoes. They were 25 dollars. Regularly 80 dollars. What a deal.

I want a shirt like this....
I need contacts! I am tired of seeing people with cool ass gaga-like shades. Makes me jealous and full of rage. Grrrr....*giggles*
So yeah.... I need a bathing suite asap. I live 2 minutes from the beach back in Cali and I am so going to the beach like everyday. I miss it already. The annoying part about going back to Cali is I gotta move my records over again! School business. I need to give the college there my records....Its a mess and I do not want to talk about it, it just worries me. Basically in a nut shell I am trying to pass all these damn maths...Shoot me. I am like the dumbest noodle when comes to math. I swear I have ADD in those damn classes. I start daydreaming so fast. No Bull-shit.

So I am feeling these. But these seem a little much. I saw these on The View. Yes, I watch The View. Whoopi Goldberg is my hero. Seriously.

Bag Lady: Tia Heartz Chanel But Will Never Have One

I need a new damn bag. But bags I like I can never afford. I love the bags in places like Marshalls and TJ Maxx. They have a better selection then Virginia. So I wish I could get a nice bag from there. I love Juicy Couture. I love Bestey Johnson. I love Dooney. I love alot of the ones that are like 200 dollars. I can't pay over sixty on a bag. I can not do it. I have bills. I cant do that to myself. I love Chanel though, I will never own one. Unless someone leaves there Chanel purse in a store something. Then I would steal it. But then again no, because if I steal it, it will go back on me three fold. Karma is real! Screw what people think. If you fuck over someone or do something mean, comes back to you ten times worst. That is why I try to be nice to people all the time. I even give homeless people change or dollars. Because they need it more then I do. It comes back to you when you are good to people. Yeah the homeless person might be an alcoholic but dude, if he is living on the street looking like that, he just might need on. I've seen people be mean to people in my 25 years and the always have some fucked up issue happening to them. So I would not steal the Chanel, but I would thunk about it.

Check out all the bags I am feeling.